3 Years Go By in a Blink

Collage 2016-12-13 22_00_383 years ago today my life changed forever.  I had come to terms with the fact that I may never be a mother.  And while that fact was a sad to me, I had faith in my Heavenly Father plan for me and so we moved forward with joy that all would made for our good.  Nothing in this life happens by chance and I believe we are lovingly guided through this wonderful and sometimes tumultuous life.  The rungs on the ladders of our life guide us heavenward and sometimes those rungs let us feel the love of heaven more intimately.  That was what happened on this day three years ago.  This little angel was loving placed in my arms, and I could feel that Heavenly love.  The miraculous story of my sons coming to us is just that miraculous.  No other word can describe it.  I have often heard that miracles no longer exist in our day but I attest that I have been the beneficiary of one.  I can’t help but be grateful and humbled by this realization.  I have no doubt that my son was meant to come to us.  That he found his way through these incredible birth parents who honored us with this gift.  What sacrifice is more Christ like, and more representative of Him during this time of year than that?  My love for them is more than I can state, together we share this eternal glimpse of family and it is truly amazing. 

20161110_162422My son, the joy of my life, he has taught me more about myself and the person I want to be.  He has challenged me and uplifted me.  To now hear his sweet prayers asking to bless Mommy warms my soul.  This last year has been a great year of growth, as he learns to cope with his challenges and as we learn to guide him in a positive and happy way to be the amazing little boy he is.  He has faced challenges before and come out on top.  One night in the hospital, not long after his 30 week birth, he stopped breathing.  The alarms sounded as I turned the corner to his room and 4 or 5 nurses stood by his small isolate pumping oxygen on to his small face.  I was paralyzed by fear and stood helpless as they worked intently on my 3lb son.  After what seemed like forever, but was mere seconds, the incredible NICU nurse team helped his breathing return to normal.  I wanted nothing more than to hold him, but he needed to stay still.  So I placed my hands gently on him and then watched as my Mr and our good friend pronounced a blessing of healing and health on my son.  While the rest of his stay in the NICU was far from perfect he made steady progress and eventually the call came from the Dr. that he was ready to go home.  Again I was frightened but we made the trip and my little fighter has grown and grown, surpassing all preemie obstacles that seemed to face him, and fulfilling the promises made in that blessing.  Now as he faces a new challenge I can’t help but reflect on that paralyzing night and think if he could come back from that, he can do this, he is miraculous.
So today I say Happy birthday little one.  You are our greatest Adventure, our greatest Joy.  Thank you for being our son,  Thank you for loving us unconditionally.  We know we were meant to be an eternal family, and because of you we know the love our Heavenly Father must have for us.  I Love you, Happy Birthday.

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And there was two

RossI have one brother, one in the whole wide world, my only sibling, one.  Today is the day he was born, 5 and a half years before me.  All growing up it was me and him.  I never disliked him, or really remember having any massive fights even.  He was so patient and kind with me, letting me clip lego’s in his hair, sharing his legos (which you know was a major sacrifice for a big brother.)  He was a pretty great older brother.  And I’m going to take a second to brag about this really amazing guy.  

He has always had this smile that radiated happiness, it’s the best smile in the world!  And his laugh, it’s the most genuine laugh and his whole face and eyes fill with this indescribable joy.  You can just feel it, he just radiates it.  I think it’s something that attracts everyone who is lucky enough to call him their friend.  There is truly something special about this brother of mine.  He’s not made from the same cloth as everyone else, there really is something unique about him and you can only feel it when he’s around.  He can make anyone feel at ease and finds real interest in everyone he talks to.  No I’m not saying he’s perfect but gosh I have to admit I love that about him too.  Even in his imperfections he’s got heart and he’s teachable, always trying.  He is a true definition of a continually courageous man.

I know he has a family of his own and a wonderful companion who is so lucky to have him, yes and vice versa.  But there is always part of him that I feel is mine.  He was my guy first.  The one I looked up to, the one I am proud to say is my big brother, the one who to this day emulates to me the love my Savior must have for me.  What a blessing for me to be able to look at the divine love my earthly brother has always given me and wonder how would the Savior love me more than that?  I know it’s possible, but gosh my brother set the bar really high.  He really is that great.  And I love him, and I know I don’t tell him enough but gosh I do.  

I only have one, just him and I can’t tell you how blessed I am to have him.  Happy Birthday to You, big brother, you will and have always stood as an example in my life, and made me the better for it.  I love you.

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Window Watching

I love hummingbirds!  After moving to ourPSX_20161116_082753 house a little over a year ago we found that we had hummingbirds buzzing about.  You may remember this post.  Well we have learned we have  these lovely little birds year round and I have taken it upon myself to be their nectar provider.  My Dad gifted me these great hummingbird feeders that use quart jars.  I have one on each side of my kitchen windows, double
the birds!  I hoist little Mr. up on the counter and together we PSX_20161116_081606gleefully watch them sit and drink.  It’s such fun for my little boy, and I really enjoy it too.  I love looking out my window at any given moment to see a little hummingbird perched getting a drink, it makes washing dishes a little more enjoyable.  It brings me joy and as we get into these sometimes cloudy gray days of winter it helps to have these little moments of pure joy and wonder. I mean hummingbirds are so amazing right?  Anyway, here is what I stumbled upon on a rainy day as I looked out my window.  Augh!  Amazing!

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It’s Wonderful

You know there are times in life where we forget how wonderful life is.  Well I’m tired of that.  I’m tired of not remembering how wonderful things can be.  And with this being the season of gratitude I think it is pertinent that I Photo_2016-11-10_01-28-13_PMremember and be grateful for how Wonderful my life is.  So I decided to create a reminder, as you know I tend to do, here.  I have had an open space in my family room that has been driving me bonkers!  For a OCD person like myself and a picky person, like myself, I have to find something perfect or at least the perfect idea.  I went through several different ideas and nothing felt quite right.  Finally I figured it out!  A wonderful reminder.  I designed the layout of the letters not wanting to make this your typically individual letter layout.  Nooooo, that would be far to easy, the letters needed to be overlapped, and skewed, an air of imperfection because while life is wonderful it is imperfect.  After the design was made comes the engineering to make my dream come to life, which means I put my Mr. to work.  Heaven bless this man on mine.  He has a lovely friend who has connections and that’s all I will say.  My Mr. and hisPhoto_2016-11-10_01-30-04_PM friend went about figuring out how to make this light enough to hang but still sturdy.  They are geniuses so they figured out how to hollow the letters out.  Then we carefully glued and clamped the layers together.  The rest of the prep was on me, yes you guessed it.  Painting!  As if painting this, wasn’t enough this year to swear me off of painting anything ever again, why do I do this to myself?  Anyway . . . I painted each letter, or letter sections separately, multiple times, layers and layers of paint, because I apparently love to paint.  Finally it was ready to hang, which is where My Mr and Myself really shine, we are a fantastic team!  In no time we made a plan, measured, drilled and mounted the crazy project on my empty walls pace.  Oh it looks lovely, or really WONDERFUL!  I know cheesy, deal.  My Little Mr. and I even Thanksgiving’ed it up by adding the pumpkins on some of the letters, he sure loved putting them up there :).  

PSX_20161110_130636Along with the special reminder to us as a family I can’t help but think of the religious reminder, “and they shall call Him Wonderful, counselor, the mighty God, the everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace.”  All in my life is wonderful due to the blessings He gives me, or that He kindly helps me to recognize.  

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Hollow House

Ok so I love to decorate for Halloween.  I don’t know why this really got started, Oh wait maybe itWP_20150928_18_43_03_Pro was because I loved how our house always had plastic pumpkin lights strung across the eves for Halloween every year, not creepy just cute orange light up pumpkins.  (Mom and Dad do you still have those?)  Anyway maybe it stems from there.  But Halloween is a challenge, you see I don’t like gore.  Nope no bloody yuckiness or haunted house chainsaws for me, NO THANK YOU.  No all that is the easy way out of Halloween, the JPEG_20161005_145055_649573338hard way to decorate for Halloween is fun, classy and family friendly.  Last year was a little more colorful, I mean how cute are those topiary pumpkins and paper lanterns, adorable!  But this year I really loved the black against the gray and blues of our house.  So on we go with the Hollow house!  I draped the porch in black cloth this year, like a back curtain being pulled back from the window.  The  wreath is a new addition I created this year thanks to some lovely black spray paint and a few cheap artificial leaves, and the crow watching over all..  Stacked black cauldrons placed in one corner, as if a busy witch has left them out for brewing. 🙂  A wide variety of pumpkins greet you, a few with smiling faces, as cut out spiders dangle in the side windows. Ooohhhhh, you scared yet, I hope not it’s really not meant to be scary so much as fun to look at.JPEG_20161005_132753_2704620

Inside the console table is filled with a fun selection of various brewing paraphernalia.  All ready to cook up something spooktacular!  I decided my chandelier needed a bit of a twist so I dangled my favorite bat garland I made several years ago from it, with some fun pom poms because they just make it so cute, right?!  JPEG_20161005_131158_-783111128The mantel has the same garlands strung about, with the addition of some spidery lace.  And my favorite addition is the Halloween silhouette village and crooked fence.  I saw a similar one of these at crate and barrel and thought “ohh how fun.”  But here is the thing, it was CARDBOARD, I live in a moist climate cardboard doesn’t last very well and warps.  Second it’s cardboard, every week I pay someone to take all my cardboard away why would I pay for it?  It’s painted cardboard for an outrageous price!JPEG_20161005_131356_-1764290485  NO THANKS!  So I went to designing my own!  I designed some cute houses and then a fence to go along with it.  The problem then became how do I make these bendable to stand up and then to store for next year?  Hmmmm, Oh hinges!  But I was still riding the cheap train and didn’t want to pay for them.  Luckily I’m married to an engineer, and he owns a 3D printer!  So we made our own, I glued them together with the best glue in the world, E6000, the glue of champions!  That stuff I fixed my dance shoes with so believe me it can take a beating!  Ohh and it turned out so great!  I love it!  Perfect for my mantle!  I had a little more village so I added some fence to a family room shelf, our PSX_20161005_165959Big Hero Six figurines fit perfectly, I love combining little Mr’s toys into decor.   The remainder on the table along with another glass cauldron, and a friendly ghost popping out for a scare!  Little Mr. calls this his ghost, and I say “yep it is.”  I don’t want him to be scared so anything scary like ghosts and skulls are all his and for some reason that makes them less scary.  Then those cute, mischievous, mice running about the floorboards are kinda a tradition in our house.  So that’s it y’all!  I am adding a few little things here and there to finish up the fun.  But I’m tuckered and ready to just enjoy having the Hollow House up for the month!

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Fair People

5We aren’t the kind of people who typically go to fairs, I mean after watching the old movie “State Fair” growing up I figured people might be singing “it’s a grand night for singing the stars are bright above.”  Not one person, yep not one.  I mean that’s kinda disappointing after you watch that show :).  But that aside we thought it still would be pretty fun to take little Mr. to see all the animals and have a little treat!  We saw fowls of all kinds; these amazing pheasants were full of color, and since I love to3 wear color these were the birds for me.  Then we checked out the bunnies, a sweet little gal even opened up her cage and let little Mr. pet her hare. He had the longest ears I’d ever seen. (sorry no photos I just wanted to make sure that little Mr didn’t love the bunny too much.)  Then we went and saw cows, and sheep, sweet little piggies only 7 days old, so sweet.  I can now do a very realistic sheep baaaa, My Mr. was really impressed by my impression.  Ahh that’s love, if you can still love your wife after about 5+ minutes of her baaing like a sheep and complimenting her on it, you know this is the real deal ladies and gents.  Anyway I’m sure the skill will come in handy one 2day.  

Oh on to these goats I just fell for.  I call them bunny goats (Nubian Goats) because they have long bunny like ears, one even let me pet him, he kept eyeing me over the rail and I just had to give him a love.  I’m a sucker for animals, yes this video sent me into fits of desire to hug a cow, My Mr. says, having grown up with cows, that they are not real huggers.  But this gosh it looks so lovely!  Speaking of cows we then we went over and had our first ever purple cow.  And what luck the bell chimed and the lovely gentlemen with the cow, comfortably on his head announced that our purple cow (grape soda and huckleberry ice cream) was on the house!  What luck!  We4 had to take a photo with him.  Little Mr. indulged in an ice cream cone, face first!  He loved it and I loved cleaning him up after :(.   We popped into a few more places, there was soooo much to do and see we couldn’t get to it all before we had to head home.  Something to look forward too for next year!  Hmmmm, maybe we are fair people!  So I leave you with another lyric from one of my favorite “state fair” songs.  I love old movies;

1“I’m as restless as a willow in a windstorm. I’m as jumpy as a puppet on a string.  I’d say that I have spring fever, but I know it isn’t spring.  I’m starry eyed and vaguely discontented like a nightingale without a song to sing.  Oh why should I have spring fever, when it isn’t even spring.”

Watch it for a fun, old fashioned time.

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Living Room Reminder

I love this quote and I felt like I needed20160407_083149 to create a place for it as a little reminder in my home, especially since I have to work on all these traits pretty much all the time.  I followed some great pinterest tutorials on how to make large prints on the cheap.  And it turned out pretty good, not perfect but hey it still looks great and I get to have it in my home. So Check and Check!  

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Veggie Bounty

collageSo thanks to the amazing watering system and the amazing grow boxes (you remember here).  This is the first year that we have really had a fantastic bounty from our garden since moving to the NW.  We were pretty selective in what we planted knowing that we would be away for a little while and didn’t want to kill off the plants.  And even though I mistakenly pulled out my pumpkin plant, mistaking it for a weed (Oopppps), everything else survived.  Our pea plants exploded and our little Mr. affectionately called them “beby peas.”  Our cucumber plant has gone nuts producing 20+ cucumbers.  And we kinda went crazy with the tomato plants, we kinda love tomatos.  It does my heart proud to see my little Mr sitting calmly on the edge of the grow box chomping down on all the cherry & grape tomatoes he picks right off the vine.  We go out and pick from the 5 different tomato plants we tried this year, eating as we go, ohhh thosecollage (2) sweet 100’s are divine, special thanks to Cedarcrest High school for that plant.  That is my favorite cherry variety and thankfully they were the only place I found that sold it, and now we are enjoying its fruits.  Amazing!  You know there is something awesome about planting something and watching it grow.  We hope to get enough off a few of the plants to make some tomato juice.  Now I know what you are thinking, why didn’t you plant zucchini?  Well the truth of that is, everyone else plants zucchini’s and they end up giving them away, so I’ll save my garden space for other things and enjoy the free zucchini that others grow, I mean I’ve given away my cucumbers so I feel like that’s a fair trade, right?  It’s been a fun summer watching our garden grow, now we’re making plans for what to try planting next year!  

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Rainier’d

Collage_FotorNow many a folk has asked us if we had been to the legendary, and majestic Mt. Rainer, just an easy 2 hours south.  To this we would in shame reply  “no, not yet.”  Well with the summer drawing quickly to an end we made plans with the Cline Crew to visit this craggy site.IMG_3560  We loved the back roads trip south from our home town.  It was like we were creeping up on the mountain from behind (though I’m not sure if this place has a front or a back per say, any Rainer regulars that can correct me on this?).  But we made our 20160826_103619way winding through the small towns that border this incredible site.  We caught a quick distance glimpse through a farmer’s field and the excitement intensified.  It disappeared behind it’s forerunner hill sides, staying out of sight.  We shot through its forest fully engulfed in the tree lugeCollage-17 created by the surrounding forests.  Then as we climbed the mountain side there it was, shooting out from between the trees.  I was in awe and stopped to take a rare selfie, yep just me, I’m the shooter not the subject.  A quick stop turned into a fun meeting of another adoptive family whose children were grown.  It’s such a blessing to IMG_3686commiserate with these people, and I really appreciated their insights and recommendations andIMG_3676 support, what am amazing community we are a part of.  Then in was off to meet with the rest of the crew and set up a little camp.  Our first stop was ‘Groove of the Ancients.”  This gave us an up close view of some of the oldest and largest trees in the area.  It was amazing to see the roots and trunks of these massive trees.  The littles sat inside the roots of a fallen giant, and there was even plenty of room for us adults to join them.  We moved along the board walk path, to show the sheer height and size of these behemoths, the littles struck a pose at the base, giving some Collage_Fotor 1perspective on the enormity   A trip across a fun bridge only added to the adventure, with the promise of a quick dip in the creek below, which turned into a full scale swim for little Mr.  We traipse around the trees taking in the sheer size of these literal giants.  Then back to camp for relaxed fun and some tradition fire cooked hot dogs , and you know SMORES were a must.  Bedtime eventually came, only after a few hours of adult chat time, which is always apart of our get togethers.

Next we headed up the mountain to Paradise Inn,Collage_Fotor4 taking our time and enjoying the many pull offs to different sights of the scenic views.  The second day the mountain was engulfed in cloud cover, hiding its summit but still revealing the skirted crags making the base, it was a beautiful perspective, shrouded in mystery.  The visitor center at Paradise was fun, and we had to say our goodbyes and head back down, taking a few of the fun tunnels that little Mr. loves so much.  I kept thinking of this talk as we looked to the light at each tunnel’s end.  We stopped in the little town of Greenwater for a couple ice cream cones just to enjoy on the rest of the trip home, MMmmmmm, so yummy!  It was a quick trip and most certainly not our last, that place has so many amazing locations to explore, the boys are already making “MANCATION” plans. I’m sure we will be returning there for years to come!

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Escape to the Zoo

20160630_095520Is it embarrassing to admit that I have never taken, or wanted, to make little Mr to the Zoo?  The idea of setting him loose in that big a place and with wild animals just didn’t see the positives coming out of that at this point in our lives.  But when Grandma and Grandpa Fruit Snack suggested it as a fun outing for them and us to go on I actually loved the idea.  I mean little Mr. wasPhototasticCollage-2016-07-19-18-33-26 outnumbered 4 to 1.  I mean more hands to help keep track.  So we went for it.  We meandered through the Zoo taking in the Zebras and Lion cubs, 3 babies so sweet.  They napped the whole time we were there but hey it was still really neat to see them napping with their mommy’s.  Colin fell in love with the huge black Gorilla.  He watch him in his dwelling with total fascination.  We pretty much had to pull him A9595F1D6away.  Then we took in the Elephant show which was so fun, elephants are so smart, maybe they do have a good memory despite the one in Zootopia (I love that part).  The highlight of the trip came with the train ride.  Little Mr loved waving to all the animals and the people as we chugged past.  He was so cute.  It was a really fun day and made me think that we would have to make this Zoo thing a more regular experience.

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More than a Friend

Growing up she would always say to me, IMG_4689“I want to be your best friend.”  As a child it was hard to wrap my mind around a mom and a friend?  Friends are kids my age right?  But as I grew that thought, which she continually reminded me of, crept into my thoughts.  My Friend.  As a teen I was really close to my Mom and regardless of my adolescent selfishness and mistakes she continually befriended me regardless.  Many “age friends” came and went but there she was, my best friend.  Offering comfort and encouragement, love and honesty.  Teaching me selflessness and thoughtfulness, seeking the spirit and using it, positivity and rising above.  And even; though I know she’ll deny it, SNEAKINESS. 🙂  Now, as grown as I can say I am, she is indeed a best friend.  I still call her to shed a tear, and seek advice, to share joys and pit falls.  She is still there.  

So I want to honor her today on her Birthday, no I won’t tell you her age because she is ageless.  Mom, thank you for all you taught me.  For loving me at all times.  I know that in this grand scheme of life a plan was set out for you and me.  I know our friendship extends longer than we can remember and I am so grateful that a loving Heavenly Father consented to let me stay close to my best friend as I navigate this incredible life.  I think he knew I’d need you.  Thank you for continuing to share your life with me Mom, thank you for being the Holy woman you are.  What an example of faith, positivity and happiness you have been throughout my life.  Your example of steadfast living has given me and example to emulate and I am in debt to you for helping me become who I am today.  Thank you for loving me, thank you for wanting to always be my best friend, you truly have always been.  I love you.

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Quiet in the Crazy

As a mom of a crazy toddler boy you seek solitude, quiet in the crazy.  Btu it’s also frightening, right?  You know what I’m talking about.  The minute the crazy stops  your know your in trouble.  So on one such occasion I went looking for my trouble.  To my delight I found him calmly lying in the guest room quietly jabbering to himself.  He did make a mess of the pillows on the bed but honestly who doesn’t love falling into pillows.  It was sweet I didn’t capture the moment in time but I did get his first look at me.  Gosh I love this little boy!

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